HA bitch.

You simply don't deserve me. i mean really. Somedays i wish i had NEVER met you, i wish i had never seen you, because then everything will be so much more easier, but it will be easier for you too. And you hurt me. Many times. I don't want things to be easier for you. So i am actually quite happy we met, quite happy you were an amazing friend to me, quite happy about everything that has hapenned, quite happy it ended that way, quite happy i'm finally getting to move on and forget about you, quite happy you live ur life by urself, quite happy you don't miss me, because soon, i won't even remember ur name, or at least i won't cry over it.
I loved you so much, i loved everything we shared, and i hope you did too.
Now, i just dislike you, the "new you",
However, i wish you luck in life, and i wish you hapiness, because i don't want to be like you, somehow i've always wanted to be like you, i admired you, everything about you, but now i just hope i have nothing in common with you, so i wish you to be happy and everything, and i hope you'll find someone to love and to love you back.
And I, will be just fine.



Anywayyys! grey's was amazing!!! <3 i'm so happyyyyy it's back on screen!!! Can't wait for next Friday so i can watch it! And omg, chrowen is so not gonna last. TEDDY & OWEN will rock at some point. I know it!!
And PP was sooo sad :( I actually can't believe i cried for so long during the first epis lol
And ohhh! tonight is glee night!! :D cool!
And Lucie bought me a GIANT monkey! <3<3 I need to think of a name for him and his little baby!
Merci ma lulu! <3
And i love my friends, i really do, even if sometimes i don't seem like it, i really do love you, and thank you all for all you've done, you make me happy and you make me get up in the morning (tho please, do not wake me up to early!!!) :^)

Today, i really did my homework *proud* tho now i have to study (which im sure i won't do but oh well) so i'm gonna go and *pretend i am studying* study. :D

Meet tanla & tanlo 

night all!! xx

Hello Autumn!

Yes, it's past midnight, so today is the 22nd of September, which makes it the first day of Autumn! Hello there my dear! Enjoy your stay!

Bleh!! My for-now-week has been horrible. Trop de tests. Y'en a marre. même si ils sont pas notés. (du moins pas la plus part (évidemment, les maths, eux sont notés. Juste histoire de bien faire chier hein))
Monday : French - German
Tuesday : Maths (omg)
Wednesday (so in 7 hours and 40 mins) : Sciences, Physics and History.

Then on the afternoon, finnsh lessons, but i have to go to pff je sais même pas où in Paris to go to the school..

Friday, i'll see ma lexouille!!! Elle me manque beaucoupp!!!
And on saturday/sunday, i'm sure i have something planned, i just can't rememeber whaat.. hmmm!
Anyways, doesn't really matter right now!

And omg, i should start reading "Candide" & "L'ingénu" de Voltaire parce que dans moins de deux semaines.. OUAIS!!! un test!! wohoo!! Je déteste le lycéeee!! Je veux retourner au collège!! :(

And yeah, today i had 13/20 in English.. J'ai jamais eu une aussi mauvaise note en Anglais depuis pfiouu!! la 5ème! C'est affreux.. Mais en même temps, je suis dans un lycée qui a un excellent niveau, et je suis en Anglais billangue (Proficiency) et je suis là seule de ma classe d'anglais qui n'est pas vécu à l'étranger (soit dans un pays anglo-saxon soit just ailleurs) donc théoriquement je devrais être la plus nulle (ce que je crois être) mais n'empèche que j'ai eu 13/20 et que y'en a qui ont eu en dessous. HA!
breff!! Donc je suppose que enfait c'est pas si terrible que ça! is it?! mum said it was great!

Anyway!! I'll go study now (ou pas!)

Anne-Laure rocks

cheers! xx

BRING ON NEXT FRIDAY!!!!

4 days left before GREY'S!!! can't wait!!! I've watched the Sneak Peeks today (there are 6 available ones) and omg!! CANT stand it anymore!!!!!!!!!! this show is LOVE.

I have a test week next week.. well only monday tuesday and wednesday : French, German, Maths, Physics, Sciences, and History. (kill me now please) i'm gonna suck big time.

Tonight, i talked with Taru on the phone and hahaha!! Muffin was wasted lol :D And apparently (READ THAT TANLA) i have a British accent! HA, and not a rubbish american one!!
And haaaaaaaaaaaaa!! i wanna go to Kuopio now!!! And hlsk!!!!!!! <3<3<3

I've listened to a really great song today called : All i see by The Magic Numbers
It's really nice! i love it! :)

random fact but i hate it that my hair is SOOO dry :( :(:( Why can't i have blonde without having shitty hair ? :(

And yeah hahaha! Lucie and i are having a TEQUILAAAA PARTYYY!! like Naomi and Emily hahah!! isn't that right mate? :DD

and yeah!! Dans 33 jours c'est les vacances! thank god.

i'm tired. i want to read a fanfiction. But i have to learn that stupid... it's not even a poem... well something from Victor Hugo which is SUPER huuuge!!

Naomie, love, u're just SO pretty here..

Anyways, laters all. xx

Suomenkielen tunti oli ihan vitun hyvä!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moroooooo!!! 

I started finnish lessons yesterday!! :D it was soo cool :D but people there are like Finnish, well half finnish people, so they were talking in Finnish most of the time, well no cause it was the first day, so not really, well it was my first day, but not theirsss!! Anyway!! It was great!! I felt like i was in Finland surrounded by finns!!
We read a text about Kalevala, finnish people told me that it was a boring thing, but since i didn't get anything, i found it rather interesting :DD
There are about 4 people in my class lol (depends on the days) and hmm yeah as i said they are all finnish! But they are so nice! And the teacher is so nice too, and the little kids parents!!!!

So basically there, we (well they) are analizing texts and working on them! I guess i'll just try learning basics stuff first lol :D
But yeah, it was really niceee!!

Today, i had a fking test in german. I sucked big time. There were like 40 words to write down, i think i wrote like 25, and half of it must be false lol :D greattt!!! :Z

But otherwise i had a nice day! English litterature was interesting, maths was hmm well boring (as usual) history was great! well it was geography but yeah! And hmm french was omg french was two hours long so it's kinda bad, and i got such a bad grade but yeaaaah.. :D

And now, i should be doing my homework, but as you can see i am not.

And Stefanie on tylsää so i'll go talk to her now :)

xx

I can feel winter coming up!

Monday was a nice day, i didn't have many classes (well 6½) and at night i had a nice evening talking with tanlaaaaaaaa who is totally mental btw! :D
buuuuuut today was HORRIBLE. My history teacher is such a BITCH ; i hate her sooo much.
I can't believe it really, how can she even be a teacher? she is so cold and she talks to us like we are pure shit or somehing... I really can't stand people like her. And she is my Head.Teacher!

On sunday night, i was thinking about what i should do later, like after the bac and stuff, and i really would have wanted to be a surgeon, because really, let's face it, THEY ROCK!  but i can't because the education system is so fking retarded here in france.. And to be a surgeon, or to do anything that concerns medecine or sciences, i need to do bac S, though i can't do it, because i litteraly SUCK at maths. Which means i just CANT do bac S.

So i did some research on internet and i decided i wanted to study psychology, but then i started wondering what psychology could really be usefull for.. so i kept looking until i found something more interresting!! It's called Neuropsychology and seeeems sooo coool!!! but yeah, once again it's a medical thingy and i think i need bac S for that! Isn't really so stupid?? i mean, in med school you don't need maths AT ALL. To be a surgeon you dont need to know this for exemple :

like reaaaaaallly??? pfff.
this is so ridiculous. im sure maths teachers know that themselves. 


All you need for med school is like to know what is Asperger syndrome for instance, or what is Anemia and the symptoms...
Anyway, this is just so BRAINLESS.
I also am interested into Social neuroscience  & Cognitive psychology

And because of my thick-headed history teacher, i have to be at school 15 mins earlier tomorrow *so we could talk* pfff. You are just a biiitch. A.D.M.I.T   I.T. 

OMG!!! grey's starts in 8 dayyys!!! woohooo <3<3

ja huomenna, suomen kielen kursseja alkaa!  ♥

 
 xx

yama yamaaa!

Last night, after the hairdresser thingy, i went to Amelle's, had dinner there, and slept over. We watched hmm 3 episodes of grey's anatomy; season 5, the ones with the serial killor and derek's mother in Seattle and hmm the pregnant woman who feels better after eating a cheesburger and who knows about Derek wanting to propose. And it was so damn saaad! We cried like little babies lol :D and omg, seriously, Meredith with that high pony-tail is just so RIDICULOUS.

Then we had lunch and went to Lucie's to pick her up and then we went to mine's.
We didn't do much, we took pictures, talked, ate.. it was nice being together again! It's such a shame we are all separated :(
I'm thinking about having a "party" here in two weeks with all the people cause yeah, then we could be all together again.. It's just so weird to talk to one of them at night and say like : "Ok, gotta go now, but maybe i'll see u tomorrow if i come online.. otherwise see you soon and have fun at school"
Because we used to say : Good night, see you tomorrow for hmm.. oh geez... german... and latin :DD
I just wish things were different and simple..

And tomorrow, i'm going back to school (yaaay another week to goo Zz) and i can't wait to see people faces :D They are probably gonna be surprised.. i guess :D

And hmm, 40 days before autumn break! And 11 days before grey's starts again!! wohooo .DD

i'm gonna get something to eat now :) xx

i am blonde!!!

Salut.
i'm now blonde!! i dyed my hair today and i'm super proud of the result :D it looks nice!
I spent like 4 hours at the hairdresser, that was kinda annoying though!!
And it's so cool, cause it's still like so sunny and warm here!! I can't believe summer is over, and that i have been in class for a week already!! Summer has gone WAY TO FAST!!
I can't wait for autumn break!! and the xmas and oh yyea, i'm going to finlaaaand then!! to Taru's!!! it's gonna be like MENTAL!!!! <3

And also i'm gonna start Piano lessons soon!! wohhoo!

i feel like chocolate right now.. hmmm!!! or maybe just like nice food lol :D

but yeah, i don't have much to sayy, just wanted to write that i am now a blondie from france hehe :D

xx

Every cloud has a silver lining.

So today was my last day at school for the week (duuh obviously its friday) but yeah! and hmm today was kinda ok :)  I had a nice day and enjoyed being with my new friends who are all so nice!! 

(APPOLINE!!!! STAGNE!!!)

And i didn't have french lessons so yaay! :DD and my new english teacher is irish! and she is nice!! When she is like mad or somthing she can't raise her voice so she just like have this weird expression on her face saying "stop it you little beans!!" but yeah she is nice :) 

Hmm, what else, oh yeah then i came back home, had an argument with my brother and since then everything just sucked.. I hate it so much that your day can be really good and the second later everything just makes you sad and bad. 

I hate it to have to take care of everything (well a lot) even tho i'm only 15, i mean, i shouldn't be the one doing this, but i know mum needs me so i'm grateful i can help her, but sometimes i just wish things were simple, i just wish my brothers could be nice and good at school and not making my mum goes through hell.. i just wish they would understand that we're so tired. 

And i wish i could have people to talk to, i mean i do, i do have amzing friends, but there is something that is missing in my life, something that makes me uncomplete. (it's probably my brain yyea :D ) 

Today was a "nice" day until everything got darker, for a while, but this is just how life is right? we can't change it.. up and downs, downs and up all the time yeah? We just have to be thankful for what we have and what we had. We're always gonna have bad days, but we're always gonna have good ones too, just keep hoping you won't have many of those dark days, cause really dark days suck! They are the kind of days when you just feel like lying on the bathroom floor and cry and be depressed for hours like Izzie in grey's!! AND OMG GREY'S STARTS IN 12 DAYS!!!!! yaaaaaaay!!! bring it on babyyy!!! 

I'm dying my hair tomorrow btw! :D can't wait! And i'll go buy some clothes :) 

Anyways; latersss matesss!

♥

ps : tanesha is my love forever <3 you rock my world bean! :)  

 

 

00:19

Helloww :)

Ok, i actually have no idea of what to say/write on a blog so i'll just do something short :)
Tomorrow will be my 6th day in my new school! I used to hate it a lot but now it's kind of alright!
I made some new friends and the people are nice there! The teachers are quite ok too :) Except the french one, OMG that one is HORRIBLE like really! :D
And hmm what else, i'm glad amelle is in the school with me too because even if we only see each other at recess, well it's still nice to have ur best friend around!!
hmm, i had a quite nice summer :) Went to London, and Stefanie came over in Normandie & here, and i went to the south of france (campinggg!) and yeah that's about all :)
I can't wait to see my friends again! it's just so weird to go to another school and be without the people u used to be with for FOUR years! i miss them so much!
And hmm! Oh yeah, Taru might come over for xmas! and then i might go to Finland for new year's eve! how cool's that huh?? :DD
And also, tanesha should hurry up and tell me when SHE wants to come over!!
And btw honey, if u read this, UR RUBBISH!!!
Okayy, i should go now, and maybe i should do my homework and take a shower lol :D

ps : Anne-Laure is god! :

isn't it so great? will be on my 2010/2011 agenda! :)

xx